directing my own life

ego

2011-08-08T21:17:00.000+07:00

saat jauh rindu menerpa
saat dekat ego kita yang bicara

yep.dewasa itu pilihan.
im so so very sorry

02.05

2011-05-23T02:09:00.000+07:00

im still here, wishing for your luck, your health, your prosperity
then i remember this song >>

God, it was late, I was drunk
You saw me
The one by my side wasn't you
I'm sorry

And I knew right then
That I lost you there
You took me in

In spite of me
You made me feel invited
Nobody else
That is what I decided

Selfish and dumb, stupid and young
Yeah, that's me
But from all of the wrongs, you make it right
And forgive me

It's been said before
But I'll try once more
You are the one

In spite of me
You made me feel invited
Nobody else
That is what I decided

God, it was late, I was drunk
You saw me
The one by my side, he wasn't you
I'm sorry

You made me feel invited
I'm sorry
Nobody else
That is what I decided

In spite of me, you're here

In spite of me
You made me feel invited
Nobody else
That is what I decided

In spite of me, you're here
In spite of me
In spite of me

Marion Raven-In Spite of Me

astaghfirullah

2011-05-17T19:14:00.002+07:00

ampuni aku ya Tuhan, karena menjauhimu saat ku dirudung duka
ampuni aku ya Tuhan, karena mencoba menyangkal dr apa yg terjadi
ampuni aku ya Tuhan, karena mencari jalan keluar yang salah

happy wed ayu-hatta :D

2011-05-15T22:48:00.000+07:00

this's what i wore to the party :D

weird

2011-05-14T18:18:00.001+07:00

~~hari yang aneh~~
i have no idea..

i lost
i dumped
but i saw me smile,i saw me laugh
so,what can i ask for more?
i have all the blessing i dont thank enough :(

im sorry Lord
im sorry for being greed

and u'll know, i'm the winner of your heart

2011-05-12T19:45:00.000+07:00

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

celine dion-to love you more

my world is full with u

2011-05-09T22:52:00.000+07:00

it's 9th of May..
56months ago,do still remember it?

with u i feel warmth, i feel fear, i feel my adrenalin rush
and the most important thing in life..i feel love and commitment
u are,yes u are my everything..
thank you for loving me sweet pumpkin

2011-05-08T11:12:00.001+07:00

i'd love to be
close to you...

Here I am
At 6 a clock in the morning
Still thinking about you
It's still hard
At 6 a clock in the morning
To sleep without you
And I know that it might
Seem to late for love
All I know

I need you now
More than words can say
I need you now
I've got to find a way
I need you now
Before I lose my mind
I need you now

Here I am
Im looking out my window
Im dreaming about you
Cant let go
At 6 a clock in the morning
I feel you beside me
And i know that it might
Seem to late for love
For love

I need you now

saturday.would it be a nice day?

2011-05-07T05:53:00.001+07:00

assalamualaikum
let's start this glorious morning wt BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIIM!

be blessed pals!

.nb:my yesterday' photo :)

CONjunctivitis ToT

2011-05-04T22:15:00.000+07:00

Viral or Bacterial Conjunctivitis
What is conjunctivitis?
Conjunctivitis is inflammation of the conjunctiva. The conjunctiva is the clear membrane that lines the eyelids and covers the white of the eye. Conjunctivitis is sometimes called pink eye.

How does it occur?
Conjunctivitis can be caused by many things, including infection by viruses or bacteria. Viruses that cause colds may lead to conjunctivitis. Some bacteria that cause conjunctivitis are chlamydia, staphylococci, and streptococci. Severe conjunctivitis, such as that caused by gonococci, can cause blindness.
Viral and bacterial forms of conjunctivitis can be spread easily from person to person. They can be spread by coughing or sneezing. Bacteria or viruses can get in your eyes through contact with contaminated objects, including:
• hands
• washcloths or towels
• cosmetics
• false eyelashes
• soft contact lenses.

What are the symptoms?
Symptoms may include:
• itchy or scratchy eyes
• redness
• sensitivity to light
• swelling of eyelids
• watery discharge
• discharge of pus.

How is it diagnosed?
Your health care provider will ask about your medical history and if you have been near someone who has conjunctivitis. Your provider will examine your eyes. He or she will also check for enlarged lymph nodes near your ear and jaw. If the conjunctivitis appears to be caused by bacteria, your provider may get lab tests of a sample of the pus to see what type of bacteria are present.

How is it treated?
Like a cold, viral conjunctivitis will usually go away on its own, even without treatment. However, your health care provider may prescribe eyedrops to help control your symptoms. Antihistamine pills may also relieve the itching and redness.
If you have bacterial conjunctivitis, your health care provider will prescribe antibiotic eyedrops. You can also help your eyes get better by washing them gently to remove any pus or crusts. Then dry them gently with a clean towel.
For very severe forms of conjunctivitis, antibiotics may need to be given with a shot or an IV (intravenous).
If you wear contact lenses, you will need to stop wearing them until your eyes are healed. The combination of contacts and conjunctivitis may damage your cornea (the clear outer layer on the front of your eye) and cause severe vision problems.

Got it?well ummm, to be honest i dont really get it hahahahha
this is for my case presentation 2moz hoaah!wish my team a huge luck
xox

in the middle of nowhere

2011-05-03T23:16:00.000+07:00

assalamualaikum
i shouted it to myself and my surrounding

astaghfirullah
for everything i've done, every mistakes of mine :(

masyaAllah
bcoz sometimes i forget to be thankful, and i hate myself for doing that

hari ini semangat turun,tersenyum pun berat
banyak yg harusnya tidak dipedulikan, malah mengganggu pikiran

Astaghfirullah..

kapan bisa fokus, kalau yg ada hanya amarah
niat tinggal niat, merealisasikan memang berat

ooh ya,manusia!pembelaan ego yg diarahkan oleh setan
huss huss,,i'm trying in here,can u see it?i'm struggling

maaf.saya memulainya kembali dengan keluhan
tidak.seharusnya tidak begini..haaffftt

rando[m]ind

2010-04-01T00:15:00.003+07:00

holla world
i've been thinking abaout those words above since i applied my bengkoang mask on hahaha

it's time to make a scrap mind,, yupp it's quite similar wt scrap book but, i wont use any paper, it's global warming issue pal :D
well...
first thing : i love to be cynical wt my life, the best part is i can see ME from the different angle, rite? there's noting wrong about it :D
next : i hate licker-person, u know what, they're just so hypocrite about life, hello it's 2010 everyone! it'll take my whole life to understand their way of life, duh! so let's forget about them my friend, just make our own better ways now on hohoho
last : i believe that there is no such thing named coincidence!! yippeey
i do believe in God's plans, they are just SO PERFECT, and perfect lead us to beauty, it's God's art, people!live it! there will always a string,and i always try to pull the string in every common-called-coincidence, that's a fun job, sometime things can deceive your judgement easily, and we should learn from our own mistakes :)
stop fooling yourself by act someone u're not. just let around u disappear and u fill ur own blanks
ah!those are my rando[m]ind never mind about things i wrote, its not about you tho, it's always about me *cuphs

nb: i love this abstract life :*

what the..??!

2010-03-29T20:24:00.005+07:00

it's monday, in the morning i hoped it'll be such a nice,bright,happy day
in fact,those hopes are ruined by my magnificent M2 sableeeennng!!
hey meeen,i just wanna download some songs,,eererrgggghhh

it's becoming a "misuh" day..eventho i have no major reason to hate this day :p
well..well..i really dunno what to write,kinda sopor rite now hahaha
actually i got something to do,,-___-" i should touch the mtf glaucoma handout,but my butt aint moving even for an inch hahaha

ah!i've a story to share!it's about may new babies,my cactuses from my dear cadet.
woops wrong photo :p

slowly but sure they get rotten each day,,aaah it's a sad story
i've tried to place them outside, so that they can earn more sunlight..huhuhu
pleaase ya Allah,,give their life back..T___T

okeyh,tyme to grab that piece i've told ya!xoxo

half life by Emogen Heap

2010-03-13T19:13:00.003+07:00

I knew that I'd get like this again
That's why I try to keep at bay
Be a hundred percent when I'm with you and then
The perfect heart's length away

The stickler is you've played not one beat wrong
You never promised me anything
Even sat me down and warned me just how they fall
I knew the odds were I'd never win

Yet here I am

It's a half life
With you as my quarterback
A daft life

My self-worth measured in text back tempo
It's been two days and 8 minutes too slow
Well there may well be others but I still like to pretend
That I'm the one you really want to grow old with

Got a schedule to stick to, got a world to keep sweet
You're so much to everyone all the time
Will you ever slow down? Will I ever come first?
The universe contracts to sigh

It's a half life
With you as my quarterback
A daft life

It's a half life
With you as my quarterback
A daft life

Hold me
Darling, please

Hold me
Darling, please

You know you'll never be lonely, no you'll always be loved
And maybe you never need more than that
But for the surplus that loves, what's to become of us?
Does it even register on your conscience?

Long for one last showdown from a box in a crowd
Air compressed tight to explode
I'm clenching my ticket to the only way out
As you disappear in a puff of smoke

It's a half life
With you as my quarterback
A daft life

i want u to feel it,i wont regret every single second that i've spend wt u..it's amazing :')

keep blaming myself

2010-01-07T21:02:00.003+07:00

i was a moron
the stupidest girl ever
it's easier for me to blame myself over and over again
i drown too deep,so then no one could ever find me
and i dont wanna be found either
i will blame myself,it makes me relief

now, all i want is Allah's mercy for SINS i've done
lil strength to cover my weakness
warm arm to hold
just gimme some space,i wanna explore my mistakes

and when the time is right,i will make them proud, forgive and forget my past
cry and hatred is the best answer for now

inspired by his humerus-dislocation

2009-12-16T22:16:00.004+07:00

it made me so sad when i heard that he got injury during his pradiko
he got humerus-dislocation
he was so brave,he ignored the pain
now he has to immobilize his arm for weeks
this inspired me,
when i started to open my lecture of surgery
i want to share it

DISLOKASI.
Definisi : keluarnya caput sendi dari mangko sendi
Penyebab : trauma
Gejala :
1. Deformitas : hilangnya tonjolan tulang yang normal ( deltoid rata, dislokasi bahu). Ada perpendekan
2. Nyeri
3. Fungsiolesa, gerak terbatas ( contoh dislokasi anterior sendi bahu tak bisa endorotasi )
4. Membuat X- foto
Tindakan :
1. reposisi segera
2. dislokasi sendi kecil dapat direposisi ditempat kejadian tanpa anestesi, misalnya dislokasi bahu, dislokasi jari.

Dislokasi bahu :
- paling sering dislokasi anterior
- teknik reposisi :
1. cara Hipocrates, pakai kaki di axilla, dilakukan traksi
2. cara Kocher, paling sering digunakan , taitu traksi, exorotasi, adduksi, endorotasi
3. Cara Stimson , posisi tengkurap, traksi 5- 71/2 kg, 25 menit.

Komplikasi :
- neuropraxia n axillaris  m deltoid lumpuh tak bisa abduksi
- robeknya cuff sendi
- dislokasi berulang
- interposisi tendo biseps aput longus.

i love u fakhrul,be strong as always *cuph!

easy come easy go

2009-12-02T17:50:00.001+07:00

love those words..
means that i should not think about something too serious
but now, i want to do something fresh in my life
i want to start doing my hobby more often, and dig my talent in it
i hope it become a good thing for me, to release my stress xp
and i hope u all will enjoy yours!
wish me luck guys,it just a first step for me haha

come to mama,please

a brand new me

2009-12-01T19:12:00.005+07:00

i'd like to make it simple

i just want to share something
sometimes i misunderstood with my own will, my own passion, it's natural,right?
please correct me if i'm wrong, but don't ever make a conclusion of me, i'm not an essay, so don't resume me
life is more than just words, because i can't write everything in words

i used to keep watch myself falls down, and it's time for me to rise up
just take a deep look of ourselves, our hearts.
so, support me